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| Los Cuates Old Town, Alexandria, US |
when you feel a disconnect
when your mind is too blurred to see the world
when you don't know yourself
when you feel so empty
when you try to stay awake
when you keep sane in this narcist era
when you try to keep your feet still on the ground
when you finally got your first recognition of your genuine mind and hard work
Always be grateful. For whatever it is.
C'est la vie
-YA-
Saya datang tuk menyerap energi positif, mencerap ketakutan orang lain (dan ketakutan diri sendiri) untuk memperkuat tekad meneruskan jalan pedang. Istilah "jalan pedang" tentu saja saya dapat dari media sosial, bukan karya sendiri. Saya pakai karena saya setuju dengan filosofinya yang sesuai dengan pilihan yang sedang saya jalani ini. Kawan seperjuangan pun rupanya sama memakai istilah itu. Saat perjalanan pulang bersama dari kampus, kami bongkar esensinya dan mencocokologikan dengan keseharian, ya bukan sekedar karena tidak ingin diam-diaman saja selama di kendaraan, tapi topik ini sungguh menjernihkan keruhnya pikiran ini.
Di keramaian kala senja itu, seorang dosen/maha guru/panutan saya, berkata kurang lebih begini: sekolah itu buat apa sih? sekolah itu adalah untuk mengasah hati nurani.
Kami terpaku mendengarnya. "Kami" adalah semua yang mendengarkan. Tercengang mendengar dua kata yang sebenarnya tidak asing bagi kami, kata-kata itu dari maha guru kami, beliau yang tak pernah jemu mencurahkan energinya untuk mendorong dan mengingatkan kami pentingnya menyelesaikan pendidikan ini. Beliau yang sungguh rendah hati.
Kami saat mendengar kata-kata itu, hanya terdiam, terpaku, merenung. Sungguh kini bagi saya, kata-kata ini menjadi sakral dan mampu membuat saya terenyuh, terus terngiang-ngiang.
Ya.. hati nurani yang hampir mati.. atau benar-benar sudah hilang. Saya tak ingin begitu.
Saya beruntung dan bahagia karena mendapati masih ada yang membangunkan saya dari lelapnya sisi lain perspektif kehidupan ini.
Terima kasih Guru.
-Y-
Nov 15th, 2022:
I am starting my hiatus status on Facebook and Instagram.
I hope it makes me feel much better.
Dec 2022:
Well, it is fine actually, and ya. I feel calmer without social media.
Jan mid-2023:
I think it is okay to see a little bit of my IG or Facebook. hehe..
Jan end, 2023:
I do it on and off my IG and set it without notification. So I am not worried about any messages, besides.. no important messages on IG anyway. While FB I open it up sometimes.
Feb week 2nd, 2023:
My IG is fully active and still without notification. I am happy with that.
... and really.. this is something that is so unimportant for anybody to know. I am writing crap.
-Y
[Hook]:
Every hour of every day I'm learning more
The more I learn, the less I know about before
The less I know, the more I want to look around
Digging deep for clues on higher ground
Moon and stars sit way up high
Earth and trees beneath them lie
The wind blows fragrant lullaby
To cool the night for you and I
On the wing the birds fly free
Leviathan tames angry sea
The flower waits for honeybee
The sunrise wakes new life in me
[Hook]
Every hour of every day I'm learning more
The more I learn, the less I know about before
The less I know, the more I want to look around
Digging deep for clues on higher ground
The fishes swim while rivers run
Through fields to feast my eyes upon
Intoxicated drinking from
The loving cup of burning sun
In dreams I'll crave familiar taste
Of whispered rain on weary face
Of kisses sweet and warm embrace
Another time, another place
[Hook]
Every hour of every day I'm learning more
The more I learn, the less I know about before
The less I know, the more I want to look around
Digging deep for clues on higher ground
Every hour of every day I'm learning more
The more I learn, the less I know about before
The less I know, the more I want to look around
Digging deep for clues on higher ground
Moon and stars sit way up high
Earth and trees beneath them lie
The wind blows fragrant lullaby
To cool the night for you and I
On the wing the birds fly free
Leviathan tames angry sea
The flower waits for honeybee
The sunrise wakes new life in me
[Hook]
Every hour of every day I'm learning more
The more I learn, the less I know about before
The less I know, the more I want to look around
Digging deep for clues on higher ground
The fishes swim while rivers run
Through fields to feast my eyes upon
Intoxicated drinking from
The loving cup of burning sun
In dreams I'll crave familiar taste
Of whispered rain on weary face
Of kisses sweet and warm embrace
Another time, another place
[Hook]
Every hour of every day I'm learning more
The more I learn, the less I know about before
The less I know, the more I want to look around
Digging deep for clues on higher ground
https://open.spotify.com/track/3mDoAC8R1miOQ6Ld1NkAYH?si=2400ba8fb6d9406b&nd=1
Source of lyric: https://genius.com/Ub40-higher-ground-lyrics
what is happening to the world
everything seems to crumble down
people can't stand on their own feet
gravity pulls them apart
..
I am not talking physically
Buat saya, dewasa itu berarti mampu menahan perkataan yang tidak perlu ada argumen dari isu yang tak penting, ini satu hal isu tak penting ...
